Hey All. Geula here. I am a Doula, Childbirth educator, Chinese medicine practitioner, Wife and a Mama of 5 beautiful children, 4 girls and a boy. I also happen to be pregnant with Natural triplets, while on an IUD!
A lot of people have been asking me to start a blog. I am in the hospital at the moment awaiting surgery. I have a pair of Identical twins + 1 Fraternal twin. The identical twins are suffering from severe TTTS (twin to twin transfusion syndrome) so here goes…
It’s 6 am. Barely slept a wink all night long. Going into surgery soon. My beautiful, special, loved, wanted identical twin girls are in trouble. In distress. TTTS. The dreaded syndrome that only happens in 10-15 % of identical’s. But hey, percentages mean nothing.
The laser surgery has a 30 % chance of both making it. 30 % chance one will make it and 30 % they both (g-d forbid) wont make it. This puts baby c at risk as well.
We have chosen Dr. Yuval Gialchinsky as our conduit. I feel like be is an Angel walking on earth. My messenger. I believe Hashem has led him to me.
I am taking this huge leap of faith, completely submitting myself and me and my babies into Hashem’s hands.
This whole entire pregnancy is about letting go. Releasing control. Nothing has been in my hands. I mean I got pregnant with natural triplets on birth control, now much more out of my hands can it get.
I have been in pure survival mode. This just landed in my lap, implanted in me. This has been the single most difficult thing I have had to endure.
It has taken its toll on me. Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually.
I have been constantly sick since the beginning, still can barely keep anything down. Before I found out I was pregnant, my hormones almost led me to admit myself to a mental hospital.
In this crazy ride of “letting go of the steering wheel”, we are now asked to make choices on their behalf. Constantly being pressured to do selective reduction. Told its irresponsible to go ahead with pregnancy.
Well. I choose them. I want them, more than ever. (8 children! How insane is that???)
I continue to fight for them. For them to have a fighting chance.
I feel like a mother tiger, a mama lioness, protecting my cubs. Just try and harm them. Hear me Roar.
Thanks to all of the people around the world, who are praying for me at this very moment. We went to a special man, Rav Toib I. Israel who has been right on from the beginning. He told us that we would have a boy when we had Shalev. He now told us that we had 3 girls, and he was right. He is really plugged in above. He told us to add the Hebrew letter Yood to my name, so please pray for Geuliyah Shomrona bat Leah Rachel. I am full of beautiful souls inside of me. I feel them move, feel their energy, it fills me. Every ounce of me.
While you read this, I’ll be in surgery, and put my body and soul into Hashem’s hands.
It will take a miracle. But I expect it. Heck, I demand it!
Please help us with your prayers.
ישימכן אלוקים כשרה, רבקה, רחל ולאה
יברככן ה׳ וישמרכן
יאר ה׳ פניו אליכן ויחונכן
יישא ה׳ פניו אליכן
וישם לכן שלום
During this time, the nine days, I am trying to rebuild the bet hamikdash by spreading Ahavat chinam, increasing love and faith, one brick at a time.